Time=Age=Stupidity

Theres a point in time when Reality actually hits you.. For me it was a few hours ago.. After cleaning my room i came across a picture of me approximately i don't know 3-4 years agoo.. i look at the picture but i cant help but feel a sadness that overcome and supresses me... Thoughts were running through my mind and so were tears down my face, which i fought so hard to fight back..pussy i know but hey i aint going to bunnings anytime soon to buy some cement to harden up... i looked at the picture and i look into my own eyes though there isnt any physical changes to the eyes but its just there was a feeling of innocence in there, there was feeling of being free still not giving a damn about the world and still finding out about life... oh how the those feelings are so craved for today.. so what i realise i pass year twelve .. i get into uni going to spend the next three and a half years there .. then what i get a job and my life would then be revolved around a set time and a routine that will soon be impossible to penetrate... the craving now that i have to go back to the days when i still had my innocence still felt like i could achieve anything..

as we are we tend to take so many things for granted, may that be love or may that be just a simple feeling of being empty minded. but why is it that we take these emotions these feelings for granted at the time? is it because we havent matured enough ? or is it because were so used to having those feelings that we'd never think we lose it but until one day when you realise you have lost it then you actually begin to miss it...

i 'm in a realtionship atm and there are certain things that cant always be perfect.. somethings i myself took for granted at first but learn to appreciate it later on when its all dissapearing... Those disgusting pet names i get.. gives me the chills ... but it seems nowadays i dont hear it anymore i crave for it .. i do things and say things in hope i can hear it again but its just not there anymore... Then there is me putting the effort to call everyday.. at first it was all good but then after a while they dont appreciate it they talk in a bad mood.. always trying to hang upp...but there are somethings you just cant force in life i guess.. but hey life goes on hopefully soemthing good will happen.. because never say never and there is always a silver lineing... even when you eventually get stuck in the daily routines of life there always something that can make you smile though compared to the many things that can make you worry there are so many more. .. but a smile day and you'll be on your way.. on your way through life that is ;)