so this is the first blog entry... man where do i start i am so confused ... this only started yesterday.. the second day in a new year and bloody hell i am already lost and confused... its so hard to say to anybody how i feel.... well for sure its not love lust or hatred its more of self assesment.
Man fuk man wat do i do i dont know what to think or say.. how can i pissed at someone for being pissed at me its obvious i did something right?? so i dont have the right to be pissed at them ... but then again why is it so hard to just tell me why the fuk they were pissed at me in the first place it would make things more easy and precise... wellnot only am i annoyed at one but two farr but this is more ignorant of me for getting annoyed at someone because they were to passive or too friendly ...i know i was mucking around but if they told me to stop themself i would of stopped but they had to get it through another person...farrrrrrrrrr just amkes me fell even more annyoed but i know i shouldnt be pissed at them they should be pissed at me right?? fuk this man got me up all night jogging doesnt help hot long showers doesnt help either... FAR ALL I CAN SAY RIGHT NOW IS SORRY to those i unintentionally piss off..
but the real problem here is i begin to start to blame myself for this and wont let myself at ease dont get me wrong peopel i dont go cutting ymself .. my mind just wont relax and stop thinking so i cant sleep i cant eat and most of all i forget the purpose of socialising .. i dont wanna be a bitch so someone please tell me whats wrong with me.....
