*sigh* Whats wrong????? maybe????

well its been a long time since i last made a blog.. i usually do it when i am really rreally happy or just when i am done. Today though i am writting because i am confused. with life maybe?? with school maybe?? or just with how things are going on maybee??
I dont know how to express it but there is something that is supressed within me, it feels like a mixture of fustration, anger, sadness and worrisome. I guess its proberly because i am anticipating the exam thats coming in like about 5 days time.. Part of me is confused because i dont know how to study and ive been doing past papers and i been making so many mistakes. Part of me just wants it over and done with but part of me is scared that i know i ll do bad but there is that also little part of me telling me its gonna be fine cause i ll do fine. Its so hard to belive that my life is gonna be dependent on a stupid test that someone esle writes up.
*sighhhh* then i think i am somewhat sad and annoyed that i am loenly.. people say i am young and its ok for me not to experince a realtionship yet but seriouslllyy if i got a dollar for hearing that everytime, donald trump is nothing compared to me. People say i am good looking enough to find anyone i want but seriously in reality it just isnt. I would be lieing if i said i was looking for someone just based on their personality or beliefs, i want soemone whose just decent enough not supermodel or anything for some reason i dont like them i just want someone whose normal looking just nromal.. *sigh* for me its like the hardest task ever.. tehn seeigne veryone around me get soemone and here i am in my little room on teis freakn computer *SIGGGHHHH* all in all it should be over within one or two weeks
all i can do now is pray to the beloved farther above that he guides me and supports me through out this time.