Birthday's Dread or Love

Day by day each year, there is always that one countdown that everyone does, and I don't mean like the new years count down, its the countdown to your birthday. The day supposedly in the whole year thats suppose to be dedicated to yourself, the one day where people around you make you feel special, the one day that you realise you made a difference to the people around you, the difference you made to the world and also the difference you've made to yourself. Your birthday is a mark of your life experiences, the end of a chapter and a beginning of a new in your book. With age people say comes knowledge comes experience and comes purpose for which you are born. As the human beings God has made us to be, we all think that we are special in way or another and that is true but as true as that sounds the other truth is sometimes people will not recognise that special you. Some people may not even acknowledge your existence let alone your birthday.. And yet it may not bother you the whole world doesnt know its your birthday, you don't mind if the people that pass you by dont greet you the best wishes and you may not even care if people who message you on facebook with their wishes mean it or not.... You care about the people thats around you, those that you've been raised with, those you've created a bond with and especially the one you love.. Some may ask their loved ones to acknowledge their existence on that day with gifts and praise and celebration.. others prefer to keep it mellow and just prefer to wake up to their loved ones with a smile and just simple wishes or even a hug... I myself though i must admit seem to be very materialistic and vain but my birthday wishes have been simple for the past five years its just that i get to be loved by a special someone and spend my birthday with them.. have a picnic, watch the sunset, go water skiing i dont know as long as it was just the two of you .. the world cease to exist.... but still wishes dont always come true, five years running noting that this will be my sixith, i havent had once an actual birthday where i ve spent with anone i loved its either i ve been alone or people have failed to remmber or its just me and myself....I guess I've learnt to deal with it but deep down there still that little boy whose blowing a candle inside himself for the same wish every yaer and keep telling himself it will eventually happen..someday i know it will happen.